I have a little hard time getting over this latest break-up. Her reason for breaking up, and she did take the initiative as always, was that she wasn’t at the moment after as a serious relationship as I was. I totally disagree with her on that point ’cause I wasn’t after a serious relationship that’d mean we’d see eachother every day or live together. But that’s not what’s bugging me…
What’s bugging me is my reasons for breaking it up. Even though it only was 6 years difference between us, it felt like it was more sometimes. She was on the wild and crazy side, spontaneous, partying, have to try everything, restless, “damn the consequences”-kind of person… And I’m not. The problem is, and this is a killer to realise… I used to be all those things and somewhere along the line I lost those qualities! When I was 25 those things would have described me so well! And this is why I liked her in the first place – she had so many qualities that made me go “I so get her!”. But somewhere along the line, probably as a result of my world tour or maybe it was me turning 30, but I grew up and lost those qualities. How tha hell do I get them back!!! I loved those things about me! All of a sudden I feel so very old and boring! Give it back!
stoff
You must be logged in to post a comment.