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Talk more about the Live Earth concert tomorrow, right now I’m gonna go all geek on you. Two major things in the geek world at the moment that’s pissing me off alot at the moment.
First one is Piratebay again. Remember that site that hosts alot of torrent links with which you can download movies, music and all that stuff. Swedish police have tried shutting it down for years, and two years ago our attorney general, Tomas Bodström, pretty much ordered a raid after getting a call from Hollywood and swedish police confiscated all hardware, which shut down alot of unrelated sites who happened to be there in the same datacenter. It was the biggest abuse of power and should have blown up big. And it kinda did cause they lost the election a few months after. But now the guy who was the attorney general is in charge of an anti-child pornography organisation that reported piratebay for hosting child pornography which is gonna result in them getting blacklisted on swedish ISP’s so swedes won’t be able to visit the site. Total powerabuse again! And believe me, every time child pornography is found on that site 10.000 geeks report it right away and it’s removed fast as hell. ‘Cause just because we think it’s ok to download a movie that’s not worth the cost of going to the movies doesn’t mean we have more tolerance for that shit!
Then it’s a consumerist site in the states that got reports that Geek Squad (a bunch of computer geeks fixing everyone’s computer Ghostbuster style) techies were copying stuff of the computers that they were fixing. So they rigged a computer with porno and sent it in with orders to fix something completely unrelated and recorded as the techie copied the stuff and “OMG! the invasion of privacy!! he even copied my holiday pictures!”. I’ve done my time trying to fix computers like that and believe me… it’s common. It’s so common that I didn’t even think people did not know that. Don’t they remember how Gary Glitter got caught? He had child pornography on his computer when it broke down, he handed it in and the geek fixing it saw it and reported it to the police. Copying porn, MP3’s, movies or software isn’t an invasion of privacy (ok, maybe if the porn features you) and I’m fairly sure all these places have a clause saying “we will search your harddrive”. And about the holiday pics? Do you really think geeks wants to see your holiday pics? Nope, it just ends with JPG and was just got copied because you wanted your computer back asap, when the geek sees it he’ll hardly save it. Ofc where I work now this doesn’t happen since we have a “do not save files on your harddrive, and everything on your harddrive belongs to the company!” policy.
Why do people think geek don’t have morals or integrity?!
When I was younger, so much younger than today, there was this huge concert at Wembley and simultaneously in Philly. It was called Live Aid and it was an initiative by Bob Geldoff to raise awareness of the starvin marvins (south park joke). Then it was Live 8 two years ago that was basically about how the northern heamosphere are ignoring the southern.
And tomorrow it’s time again! But this time to raise awareness of the growing environmental issues. You know all the talk about how we’re killing this planet. Or not? It’s gonna go on for some 20 hours in 7 cities in 7 continents and it’s gonna be big.
I dunno, maybe it’s my “I remember when I was young” attitude but it’s kinda hard to beat the original one. Because it was original.
I saw season 6 of “24” last week. I dunno what to make of that show, sometimes it’s getting a bit repetetive and this time it was even predictable. But I can’t help it, I just have to watch the next episode. And the next. And the next. And got a big movie weekend coming up with both Die Hard 4 and Transformers that I’m actually gonna watch “the way it was meant to” 🙂
And once again I failed to have a relationship that lasted more than 3 weeks. I’m quite the expert at that. This time it was my fault however, I know exactly what was wrong but there is just noway you can effect the way you feel no matter how bad you want to. Back to being single again, and I’m definitely an expert at that!
About a month ago I read an article about some new swedish song some chick had recorded and put up on the net and it had spread like a wildfire because it was such a cool song. From what I understood at the time it was basically a song about a chick out partying and picking up a guy for a one night stand and dumping him in the morning. I’m a pretty liberal guy who appreciates women that can take initiative like that so I just thought all those people dissing it and getting upset were just too prude and conservative.
Until I heard it myself the other day. To sum up the lyrics – a girl at 4 am realises it’s time to hook up, grabs the first guy she sees, says “you’ll do”, drags him home, tells him to fuck her using all 3 holes and pound on her until she’s blue and yellow like the swedish flag and then waking up next morning and saying “who tha hell are you? Noway I’d have sex with a guy like you, no matter how drunk I was, get that fuck out here”. And as if that wasn’t irritating enough, she couldn’t sing worth a damn, there was no music at all and she wasn’t even nice too look at. Sorry, but if you make a song like that you have to be able to take the criticism. But there she was sitting in the “good morning sweden!” couch wondering “what’s so provocative about this song”?! … “I dunno bitch, maybe you should sing it to all girls who’ve been beaten yellow and blue by guys who think they wanted it! Or maybe to all the guys charged with rape because the woman was that wasted but said ‘go for it’. Or maybe to your own daughter!”…. yeah, it got me upset. People who do stuff only to provoke people and then saying “what’s so provocative?” annoys me.
Busy few days. I’ve been to a course in Sharepoint which is gonna be big. Well, big in the computer world anyway. Other than that I’m … actually almost afraid to write stuff here since my new… is girlfriend too soon to say?… anyway, she’s reading this place so I’m careful right now.
Another thing is that a friend of mine lost her cousin during the weekend and I’ve done my best to support her and it got me thinking back 5 years to when I lost my best friend all of a sudden. Very depressing indeed but a good reminder that no matter how much we try to control our lives there’s nothing we can do when life serves these curveballs.
That date on saturday, that was very spontaneous, went pretty ok. What I liked about her was her humor so when we were having dinner and talking I think we sat the record of how many times the phrase “no, seriously…” have been used in one hour. ‘Cause both of us were very sarcastic, ironic and making fun of ourselves that we just had to make sure when we were serious and not. I hope we’ll get a better read on each other next time or this could get complicated and end with misunderstandings. Which wouldn’t be the first time.
Other than that, life proceding as normal.
All of my friends and collegues who know I’m a good guy that deserves to find that “special someone” is telling me that I should really be into these online matchmaking places. So about 6 months ago I signed up on two of them and it’s terrible. I’m sitting there going through the list thinking “too old”, “too young”, “too booring”, “too far away”, there’s always something I whine about. How pathetic am I?! But the other day there was a girl there that caught my attention with a hilarious intro and we’re going out tonight. Best test to see if I’m over “you know who” I guess.
As I said a few weeks ago my doctor gave me pills and stuff for a 10 day long “get rid of all allergies” sprint. One of the things I was suppose to do was have a bath with this purple potassium shit (or “kalium” if you wanna be accurate). I usually don’t take baths in my bathtub and I was reminded why. It’s so very frustratingly boring. I know in my head I have atleast 10 different things I should be doing so lying there completely useless not doing anything. I even tried having my laptop there, no luck. It’s still the most boring thing I know.
So now I’ve been to italy and I’ve been to the UK, and now I honestly need to find something else to look forward to. There’s midsummer’s eve comming up but I’ve never been a big fan of that so we’ll see, but I need something more. At work everything is just ticking along nicely and my personal life isn’t ticking along at all at the moment. I got some vacation time coming up in august and nothing to do.
I guess I’ll just surf around the web finding hilarious clips like this one with some pro stealing Bush’s wristwatch, awesome 🙂
Woke up at 9.30, got my ass out on my balcony and got an hour of hot sun, got on the train into stockholm, sat down on Norrmalmstorg with shades on, a cool lemon ice tea in my hand and playing Moby’s “Lift Me Up” and that’s when it hit me… this is life 🙂
And yesterday I was introduced to Facebook.com, a grown up version of Lunarstorm, for people to set up a network of friends, family, send message, share pictures and keep everyone updated what’s going on. Basically what I’m doing here but here it’s just me. Go over there and register and send a friends request to Kristoffer Ström!
This weekend was a huge slacking weekend for me. Nothing to do on friday at all, on sunday I helped my sis moved to a new house, then out to my parents to enjoy the years first BBQ and as usual ate way way too much and thanks to the heat I couldn’t work up energy to do anything more. Then today I did nothing really important all day today, some WoW, catching up on “Heros” (awesome tv show!) and ending with a GREAT Formula 1 race from Canada. Ok it wasn’t great for Kubica but from a spectators POV it was a great. Kinda made up for the one from Monaco.
And this week I’m working late all week which in summertime means 13-20 which is just slacking! Gonna make sure to enjoy plenty of ice creams in Kungsan!
Today Påvel Ramel died. That makes me sad but in a weird way makes me smile. Because he was one of the really good guys. He was a true entertainer. He always laughed, always had fun and made some classic songs and even started an award foundation for people with elite language skills (an award I obviously won’t ever win). He was fun. He will be missed. I’ve never been able to order at a japanese restaurant without laughing because of him.
Ok, I’m back to sweden and one of the first things I’m doing is trying to transfer this site to a new server. Here’s hoping that goes as well as I planned.
We had a blast in London! Walked around half the town, went out to Biggin Hill for the airshow, did even more walking and enjoyed some pub food and some texas food and alot of beer. All in all a kick ass weekend! Will write a day-by-day entry later when I have more time.
Speaking of song lyrics I just heard one that totally describes my relationship to that girl – Depeche Modes ‘Enjoy the silence’. All I ever wanted all I ever needed is here in my arms. Words are very unecessary, they can only do harm. As long as we were just lying in her soffa holding each other it was heaven and I wanted to stop time. Then we started talking and it screwed it all up. Anyway I’m off to london now, I’m in the car to the airport and writing this on my blackberry. Hi-tech for the win! Will update when I get back. And by then I’m 32! Have fun.
Kinda funny to use song lyrics as titles to my updates, makes them seem less negative. Anyway, I did actually go to a specialist in the field of allergies and eczema. He took one look at me, made his diagnosis and gave me prescription for all kinds of stuff like penecillin and anti-biotics and creams and said “take this stuff for 10 days and you’ll feel right as rain”. “But shouldn’t we try to figure out and diagnose what I’m allergic to rather than kill the symptoms?”… “nope, this is genetic, nothing we can do yet, we’ll kill it now and it’ll stay dead for a long time and get back to me when it’s bothering you again”. So that’s what I’m gonna start with this on monday since it’s a bad idea to take all this stuff when I’m in england. Did I not mention I’m going to england this weekend?… I am.
Another thing I plan to do this summer is trying to reach 95 kilos which I haven’t been down to for well over a decade. It’s alot easier to squeze in the time to do that in the summer since we work an hour less here. But mind you, I have no idea how much I’m wieghing now but I’d guess 110 again.
So what’s going on in your life? Not much happening here. As a matter of fact I had one of the most laid back weekends ever! Had a bit of a party at a neighbors apartment on saturday and tried to enjoy the F1 race at the sportsbar but that was so hard since the race was oh so boring and uneventful.
And I think I’m over that crushing blow from last weekend. And the reason I think I took it so hard was partially the way she did it but mostly because I’m 32 in a few days and still hopelessly single. And the one person I thought “this could really work!” threw me out. So let’s all stand together and sing “things can only get better!”
Yesterday we had one of those “customer events” that I’m pretty used to from working as a consultant, but the past few times I’ve been there as a customer which is always much nicer. This time we were treated to Casino Cosmopol. We got a presentation of the company, some poker lessons (as if I needed ’em) and a posh 3 course meal (meaning I was still hungry afterwards) and then to the blackjack table and alooooot of beer and stuff. They were buying so I didn’t really notice just how much I did drink After going up 2000 and losing it again I thought I’d just call it even and go home. So there I am on the train home at 1 am with quite alot of alcohol in me and what is the absolutely worst idea at that point?… yeap, you guessed it, took up the cell and sent off a few messages. Not so bad most of them except that I had to send one to her as well! I’m such a dumb ass sometimes!! I checked the message this morning and it was a pretty good one, honest and to the point. Unfortunately, since she obviously don’t feel for me what I do for her when she read it she probably just thought “looooooser, I gotta change my number!”. So now the question do I send a retraction and joke about it or just ignore it… Oh man do I suck…
(Update: She had the humor to laugh at it :))
Today I’m gonna indulge in another vice – gambling. Got a VIP invitation to Casino Cosmopol tonight and it just might be what I need to get in a bit better mood than I am. Or it may just make it worse, who knows, I’ll just go with the “take a chance” motto and see what happens. Can’t get worse then last time…
Yesterday night at about 20:37 I hit rock bottom when I got into this whole “I’m gonna die alone” bullshit, how sad is that! And that doesn’t have much to do with this girl it was just a general depressing observation I made. The deep part is that that observation didn’t use to be depressing…. But after getting that depressed I woke up today and just said “cheer up Brian, things could be alot worse you know!”. And as if that’s not enough I got these calming words from my own personal italian guru – “be yourself and enjoy what lifes brings you, your a special person sooner or later somethin good will happen, but it will always be unexpected, stop looking for it”. Love you Dago – in a strictly heterosexual way.