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I like Valentine’s day, but not for the reason’s you’d think. I’m hopelessly single so this bs with one day per year being cute and cuddly and all that, whatever makes people happy I guess, but I like it ’cause it’s the birthday of NataliePortman.com! We’re up to 8 years now and even though I hardly do any work there anymore it’s still amazing how a non-profit fan driven website like that can still be up and running!! And even though I hate “big corporations” I gotta give credit to google for their AdSense programme, would never have afforded it otherwise!
And I made atleast one woman’s valentines alot happier, and making other people makes me happy 🙂
Here I am at work with the worst case of what we in sweden call “i-lands problem”, a small little problem that’s so irrelevant and would in any third world country be laughed at for having… where to lunch! That’s the topic for about a 30 minute conversation here… we just couldn’t come up with a good place to eat lunch. Now that’s a pretty good indicator at how much issues I have atm.
The more I date and the more I watch “House” the more I’m certain I’m totally gonna end up so totally like him! Bitter, sarcastic hopelessly single man running around commenting on human behaviour. Guess it could be worse 🙂
I either date women who are too good for me or women who… well, I think “I could do better” which is a bunch of shallow bullshit, I know, I can’t help it. And I know most women think the same thing when they look at my pictures. It’s the way it is, no matter how nice and polite some people wanna be. I know it’s shallow .. but I am honest above all. And on the other side are all these women I would really go well with that are either already taken or I just don’t wanna risk the friendship ’cause of my hormones
Meanwhile, having fun as hell. And won scrabble again 🙂
Saw “The Brave One” yesterday. That’s a movie I have heard nothing about at all. I would probably not have seen it at all had it not been for the company I was in that wanted to see it because of Jodie Foster. I’m not that big of a fan of hers, only movies she’s bee in tha I love is “Taxi Driver” and “Contact”. And here she plays a happy every day normal New Yorker that goes through a dramatic thing and goes a bit bananas. I loved it! I don’t know if was her acting, her monologues, the story, I don’t know but I loved this movie! Definitely a must buy when it comes out on blueray!!
You know what I get really annoyed at with these free newspapers they give out to commuters in the morning so we have something to read? … they don’t fill out with any unnecessary information, just the facts, short and to the point, just the way I usually like it. But sometimes they miss out on the small things. Like this article from last week. It’s in swedish unfortunately. It’s an article about a new promising player in our national team. But they missed out on one small little bit of information. What sport are we talking about!? I happen to know it’s handball since I saw the game, but they never ever mention what sport we’re talking about! They just assume you know what they are talking about and if you don’t you’re not worthy to know. It’s pissing me off cause they do it ALOT!! How hard is it to type?
I missed doing an updated about it last week, been so busy. But I was really sad to hear Heath Ledger died. Ofc it’s always sad when people die, especially if they are younger than me…
But in his case I was really sad cause I liked the guy. I loved “A Knight’s Tale”, it’s one of my favorite movies. I still haven’t gotten around to see “Brokeback Mountain” because it really doesn’t seem to be my kind of movie, but all the other movies with the guy and the interviews/documentaries I’ve seen with him I really liked the guy. I hope it doesn’t make “A Knight’s Tale” sad to watch next time, that would such more.
One of my good abilities when driving is that I have pretty good check on my surroundings, I see things on the side and stuff way ahead of me. But on sunday when I was driving my sisters kids home as I was about to pass a lorry, a deer decided to try get passed the road. He failed. Completely. Smashed my car up big time and there really wasn’t much left of it either. So there goes all that money I would’ve spent on fun stuff to try to save up for a new car cause it’s really about time for me to buy a new one.
I’m just happy I kept my cool and kept the car on the road and didn’t run off or hit the lorry 🙂
One of the guys I met the other day is a former colleague that I really enjoyed working with, cause he was funny and I really respect the dude personally and professionally (and he’s a frequent visitor here too!). And he’s happily married and have a son now and he was telling us (3 hopelessly single guys) about the overwhelming emotion of having a child and the feeling that “this persons life means more to me than my own” surprised him. He’s not the first person to have said that, another friend described it as “it was the moment I stopped living for me and started living for my child”. Now I have absolutely no way of knowing how powerful that feeling is or anything but… I dunno what’s wrong with me cause I already feel those things, definitely not as intense but definitely more frequently! There aren’t that many people that I wouldn’t lay down my life for (and I hope to prove it one of these days)! And I’ve never felt that I live for me… maybe that’s cause I’ve always been on the service side of things and why I’m happiest when all my friends and family are doing good and I lose sleep over just one friend being miserable. But what do I know …
I may have inadvertently hurt this wonderful woman I dated late tuesday but I still feel like a good guy. Why? Because it made my weekend terrible. I couldn’t get over it and lost a lot of sleep thanks to it. The idea of a woman out there being hurt and sad because of me feels right down in the gut. So my priorities is still pretty nicely tuned. And that makes me feel a little bit better. If I had hurt a woman and not felt a thing, then I would be seriously worried.
And I guess this brings the counter up to two. Two women in my entire life that I have in some way hurt, both of them inadvertently. And the irony is that both of them was hurt because I knew too much. My resourcefulness and desire to know stuff doesn’t always serve me in a good way.
But now I sent off a very very nice letter to her explaining myself, begging for forgiveness and a second chance. I doubt she will since this thing came up before we even got started but as my wingman told me, “got nothing to lose”. Except my dignity but that’s worthless in comparison to another shot at this delightful woman.
The dating life goes on. This week something really funny but kinda sad happened! A few weeks ago I’d started talking to this really nice and funny woman and when we agreed to go out it was bad timing since she was just leaving for a 2 week skitrip. But that was good since it gave me “2 weeks to plan the perfect date” (quoting her!). And being the practical man I am I got right in there trying to sort as much as possible in case she was serious about that, including looking up where she lived to try and find some good place in that region of town. Then she came back and thank god she was only joking about that. We went out on tuesday and she was certainly one of the cutest girls I’ve ever met! And over the appx. 80 minute long “talking over coffee” date we had I of course mentioned that to her when explaining what a “obsessed with the small practical things” kinda guy I am I mentioned that and she seemed to laugh it off. We had a good date I thought and she said she had fun so we hugged off on the station and went our seperate ways. Today I got the verdict. I shouldn’t have checked up where she lived and I shouldn’t have mentioned it cause that was NOT popular. Quite the opposite. So that’s off because of a small little thing like that. *sigh*
Update: Yes I should have asked her, and the fact is I did in an e-mail I sent and hoped she would reply to before she went away for 2 weeks, but I guess that was too long. And yes I should have asked her when we met but I already knew so faking not knowing goes against my honesty thing I got going. Anything else?
So it’s that time of the year that everyone gets the flu or something. That’s actually one of the few times I like being single and not having kids, I usually miss it. But after sitting next to a guy at work that’s been sick for 2 weeks it eventually hit me. So yesterday I was out cold with fever and everything. Today is a bit better but still not ok. I hate getting these things when you’re not feeling ok but not bad enough to justify not going to work. ‘Cause it takes more than this to make me stay home, I’m the guy who’ll go to africa when I’m feeling a bit sick 🙂
I dunno why, but I can’t get the song “Living Darfu” out of my head!
But I’ve seen alot of movies recently:
“AvP2” was really good, way better than the first, alot of slaughter!
“Sicko” was pretty interesting to see how bad it is over there according to Michael Moore.
“Oceans 13″… better than 12 but not as good as 11. Pretty funny to see the 3 machoest guys (Clooney, Pitt and Damon) crying on Oprah 🙂 And Ellen Barkin is always good!
Biggest surprise was actually “Shoot ’em Up”, hilarious movie! I love movies that don’t take themselves too seriously and this one surely didn’t, and it was fun. And I like Monica Belucci.
“The Kingdom” was better than I thought it was gonna be, but being a Chris Cooper & Jason Bateman fan I had to see it and was pleasently surprised. It summed up the problem pretty nicely in the last scene – when an american FBI agent says “we’ll kill ’em all!” it’s cool. When a 11 year old arab boy who’s father was killed by said FBI agent and says the exact same thing it’s scary.
And then there was “Arn”. One of swedens best authors wrote a few books about a swedish temple knight, his childhood, his love and his time in the holy land, and the books were very succesful. So they got alooooot of money and investments into a big movie and it premiered a few weeks ago and I saw it this weekend. 2 1/2 hours of complete and utter trash! The only interesting part was his time in israel, the rest was complete trash. The romance story was pathetic, the dialogue was worse than “Star Wars Episode III” (and that was bad!), and the acting… I know the guy was supposed to have a shitty life and they really got an actor that got that “someone shit in my cereal” look on his face. I dunno what it is about swedish movies but they just can’t pull off some stuff. But I guess it’s unpatriotic to not see it. But seriously, when has patriotism ever been good… (says the man jumping out of his seat screaming of joy when sweden equalized in the junior ice hockey world championship against Canada… too bad they lost in the end)
I saw AvP2 yesterday. Pretty damn good flic!! I just had to open with that so I can make the following argument without being a hipocrite:
But you know things are good when the two biggest newspapers lead story today is Britney Spears was admitted to a hospital yesterday. I mean, that must mean there’s nothing more important going on anywhere that we need to report on? No weather abnomolies, no pre-primary presidential preparation election in the US (that the third biggest newspaper was leading with), no revolution in Kenya, no snowstorm in Stockholm, nope, Britney got admitted to hospital, that’s really everything.
*sigh*
How’s 2008 going so far? For me it’s… well, still to be decided. On the downside we have
1) Warcraft guild breaking down again (which ironically would actually be good for me)
2) Alot of TV shows are starting their last seasons
3) Our trekking saturdays is probably gonna be a thing of the past due to low attendance.
So that should make me atleast a little bit depressed? Well, I ain’t. Cause today I woke up and witnessed a snowstorm outside and said to myself “it’ll be a miracle if the trains are on time today”…. but they were! So at 8 am I sat down in my warm comfy chair with a warm cup of tea and enjoyed the snowstorm in Kungsan. That felt good. Then I got a cute e-mail from a cute woman I’m hoping to get a date with any day now, but ironically enough she’s off to switzerland to ski over the weekend so that’ll have to wait. Which is why I can’t really say if 2008 is off to a good or bad start yet.
But tonight… Alien vs. Predator 2! Yeah, I’m actually going to the movies!!
Happy new year everyone!
I spent another new years eve in the calm comforting company of my family, enjoying a nice dinner, some beer, alot of “remember when…” discussions and a visit from their neighbors to talk even more trash and toast in the new year. Pretty sweet.
Now if you know me well enough you’ll know I’m all about moments. ‘Cause what you remember in life aren’t an entire sequenze of events like a video, but more moments like still pictures. And I’m trying to maximize those moments as well as I can.
So on the question of what the best moment of 2007 was I’d say “that perfect moment kissing Nina back in May”. Ironically the answer to what was the worst moment of 2007 is “when she threw me out 10 seconds later for no reason”. Which pretty much sums up the entire relationship – heaven and hell.
So let’s hope 2008 can top that… or better yet, let’s make damn sure it tops that!
The other day I got to talking with one of our senior partners at the lawfirm about some case he was working on and what a big mess it was with this company that had been bought up and merged with some other company and split it by the EU and stuff, it was a big mess. So I told him to “just google it, you’d be surprised” but he didn’t really believe me so he asked if I could do it. So I got 3 things to look up on the internet, information about 2 different companies and try to find if they had anything to do with each other and the third was to find info about some guy that was involved. After about 3 hours of searching around I had complete background info of both companies and how they were related (which unfortunately for them they were!) and a pretty good biography of that dude, including his wife’s age and maiden name.
It’s scary what you can achieve with all the public search engines and archives on the internet. And it also got me to think just how much information someone could put together about me an dmy family only using this website… let’s hope noone ever has a reason to do that!
Seems I had so much fun I kinda forgot this place and wishing everyone a merry christmas!
But I hope you had a jolly good weekend and holiday, I sure did. Nothing spectacular. As always I spend it “at home” with my parents and my sister and her kids coming over and my “brother” joakim as well. Had a very very relaxing christmas, plenty of fun and way too much food. I gained like 3 kilos in the past 2 weeks, thank you very much for that. But I guess that’s the standard for this holiday, isn’t it? Then I had my friends over here for some movie watching and catching up on what’s happening and tonight I’m going to my old friend Henrik’s place, you know the guy that got married. He got a PS3 we need to break in with alot of gaming and stuff with the old crew from high school, that’ll be a blast I hope. Then I got no plans for the coming weekend what so ever and since I’m >30 now I’ll need it to recover 🙂
Here’s hoping you’re having as much fun as I am!!
This sunday I realised something quite lovely. After catching up with alot of old friends at the wedding and chatting with other friends on MSN and stuff, I came to the conclusion … everyone of my friends and everyone around me is in a pretty happy place at the moment. Ok, maybe not my sis, but she’s doing a good job of faking it.
But my old friends from school are all happy, married, kids and all that shabang. My bestest buddy Mats is happy his chick got a job up here in stockholm so they can finally live together. Another friend went through a minor depression but she’s all better and cheerful. Everyone is just happy. And you know me, when my friends are happy I’m happy. If even one of them is miserable it’s enough to make me lose sleep over it thinking “what can I do”. Seriously, happened last week for example. But that was then, this is now so everybody is happy in time for Christmas!!… or they just know I lose sleep when they aren’t so they just don’t tell me nothing 🙁
So here is the story of me going home after the wedding:
The party was at a place called Ängby Slott which is west-north-west part of stockholm which is an area I’ve been in twice in my entire life. But being the practical “thinking of everything” person I am I had checked “how to get home” and as always taxi rules but subway was an option. When they threw us out I tried getting a cab and failed, no cabs available in the vicinity, so tha hell with it, lets walk to the subway. First problem was I didn’t know what was north or south, no references at all. So I tossed a coin and went this way. And that turned out to be correct! Unfortunately the train was 20 minutes away so I sat down to wait. Normally in these circumstances I am very quiet and keep to myself and don’t bother anyone. Tonight was gonna be different!
At first there was this elderly lady that sat down next to me. The entire hall was empty, she had like 40 seats to chose from but she sat down next to me cause I “seemed like a nice man”, and then she got to talking how the youth of today was so rude and disrespectful that if she sat alone somewhere some kids would see her as easy target. So we sat there, trashing todays youth, talking about stuff and how lovely weddings are, pretty nice chat. Even though I was pretty wasted.
And then onto the subway at Åkeshov going all the way down to Hagsätra which is 26 stations!! At Brommaplan a young couple boarded that was in a very heated discussion about Lars Brandeby vs. Micke Persbrandt as best actor and I joined in on that conversation. I have no idea why but I joined in and before they left on Odenplan we’d all agreed Micke won. On the central station a woman with a … distinguishable hat sat down next to me and on the nexts seats a bunch of these teenboppers sat down, very loud obnoxious disrespectful kids and one of them thought it was a good idea to always spit on the floor, which you really don’t do on the subway. But I minded my own business. But the woman next to me politely asked him to stop and he started up with “you really think I care what some ugly chick with a stupid hat say!? Shut up, as if I care!” and on his second round of that speech I got up and grabbed him as hard as I could and shoved up against the wall and got right up in his face and did the worst bad boy one-liner impression I could. The guy got shitscared and was desperately looking for someone to help him but everyone was as annoyed with him as I was. So after standing like that for 2 minutes he was almost ready to cry and I let him go and he jumped off at the next station and I went back to my seat and pretended it was raining, wondering if that was a good thing I did or not. I have no idea what the woman next to me thought cause I never really saw her that well and she went off a few stations after.
Then at Globen the next funny bunch came in – 5 20 something kids that had been out partying for the 5th day in a row and we ended up with a new product – “post-party bag” containing everything you need after any party. It was everything from plastic puke bag to flashlight and even a compass (see earlier that evening). It was a hilarious discussion where my years of experience came in handy and we even named the product but I have no idea what, but it was fun! Then I ended up in Hagsätra and walked a mile or so to the busstop and waited for the buss and that’s when I did it again. Yeap, I yanked up my phone to start texting my friends! Everything from inappropriate perverted jokes with the groom to “don’t you dare get married!” jokes with my bestest buddy. And then buss home, walked another mile to my apartment, sent off the last few messages and hit the bed with a big fat smile on my face!
And how long did that all take me? Well we were thrown out at 01:30. And that last text message went out at 03:56. That’s 2 hours 26 minutes for what would otherwise have been a max 30 minute taxi ride. But in all fairness I would never have had those four very funny experiences had I gone in a cab hom so I am very happy I didn’t. Who knew the subway could be that fun? Who knew I could be that conversational!!
Update: I remembered the name as I was walking around in the christmas shopping chaos – “Party Pose”… which kinda only works in swedish (intoxicated at 4 am, “Pose” and “Påse” do sound alike!)… man that was fun at the time.
Ok that was a blast! I really didn’t expect to have _that_ much fun, for some reason, but it was!!
The ceremony was beautiful, usual slip of the tongue (mostly by the priest!), then off in a buss with a driver that took a wrong turn so we had to walk for a little while but nobody seemed to mind. The dinner was good even though it never got that chatty. One funny little thing they had done was a little pamphlet with various information in it and they had listed all the guests with a small little note that was intended to stir up some conversation or atleast open it up. Unfortunately on me they had written “hates NPC:s, Razer ftw!!” and when people asked I had to explain just how white and nerdy I am!! I had no idea we were suppose to hold a speach, apparently “childhood friends” are suppose to do that? So between the four of us we came up with… nothing really, and I fucked up my little bit of nothing, but atleast we got another toast out of it. Then tables away and the dancefloor was open and I was up there… thrice I think, one of those times ended up with me on the floor… you had to be there. And then one of the more interesting rides home. But I’ll update about that tomorrow cause it’s gonna be long!
Some great memories from that day : Johan doing the imperial march from Star Wars as the bride entered, Jannes uncontrollable yawns during the ceremony, the buss getting stuck, the Andersson family’s version of “Världens Bästa Bamse” (give mp3!), the peppar steak, the cake, the two people with the cameras that were everywhere (one of them even joined the dancefloor!), all the 80’s music, Jocke and Johans two dances.. or whatever that was, my new two personal heroes – Jonas and Lars and the ride home.
And only one “are you dating anyone yet?” and three “who are you here with? What, you’re single? But you”re 32!”. Wouldn’t be a wedding without them!
All in all – kick ass wedding!!