What’s so weird about Christmas is how much I, and alot of other people, hate the build-up but totally enjoy it from 24th to 31st! The build-up is ofc, having to go through all your family tree checking who wants what, then doing the actual shopping and try to squezze your way through the stores and everything, and all the christmas decorations and stuff and ofc all the preperations at work planning the holidays and making sure all lawyers have remote accessibility… it’s all a big hassle! But from 24th I just shut everything out, go home to my folks and enjoy a few days of calm and just relax all the way to the new year! I took out 4 days of vacation and managed to get 12 days off from work which means alot of time with my family and catching up on stuff.
Hope you have a very merry Christmas!!
Check this picture. Then, check this one. Notice the small changes… I’ve never felt so vain in my life, photoshopping a picture of myself. But if I can, why not? I trust you’ve all seen this awesome movie-clip?
And oh, I back-tracked why this girl thought I was after a more serious relationship than she was – I told her why the previous reltionship didn’t work, because we had only seen eachother 5 times in 2 months which was a bit less than I wanted. But that didn’t mean I was talking about living together, did it? Oh well, I guess I’d better practice saying what I really mean rather than say half the story and let people fill in the blanks… I dunno why I do that, I shouldn’t be assuming people get my jokes just because my best friends get me and my humor. Like the title of this update, how many are so retro they know Carly Simon’s lyrics?
I have a little hard time getting over this latest break-up. Her reason for breaking up, and she did take the initiative as always, was that she wasn’t at the moment after as a serious relationship as I was. I totally disagree with her on that point ’cause I wasn’t after a serious relationship that’d mean we’d see eachother every day or live together. But that’s not what’s bugging me…
What’s bugging me is my reasons for breaking it up. Even though it only was 6 years difference between us, it felt like it was more sometimes. She was on the wild and crazy side, spontaneous, partying, have to try everything, restless, “damn the consequences”-kind of person… And I’m not. The problem is, and this is a killer to realise… I used to be all those things and somewhere along the line I lost those qualities! When I was 25 those things would have described me so well! And this is why I liked her in the first place – she had so many qualities that made me go “I so get her!”. But somewhere along the line, probably as a result of my world tour or maybe it was me turning 30, but I grew up and lost those qualities. How tha hell do I get them back!!! I loved those things about me! All of a sudden I feel so very old and boring! Give it back!
It’s 5 days before Christmas. Every intelligent person knows the story, they’ve been here before. So I gotta ask this question this year again … how tha hell can the arrival of snow cause delays for the trains? I mean who did NOT consider the possibility of snow today? How can they be caught off guard – again? I get pissed everytime it happens. 20 minute delays because of some snow is just rediculous. Fortunately I wasn’t in a hurry to get home…
Speaking of being in a hurry – I bought a new electric toothbrush last week. It has a cool function – every 30 seconds it stops and starts again. This is to indicate it’s time to change side since you’re only suppose to brush 30 seconds on each side totally 2 minutes. Nice feature. And I’ve never been so stressed brushing my teeth ever as I am now.
So yesterday I decided to indulge. I had after all been dumped (however amicably) and felt like feeling sorry for myself and decided to go to Heron City and enjoy a movie or two, Pizza Hut and all that crap that blows my sugerlevel sky high. And it was good. It was very long since I’d done that.
I saw two movies – “Casino Royale” and “Superman Returns”. “Casino Royale” was pretty ok, not alot of action for being James Bond. But the story was pretty good even though it felt a bit too… “common” for Bond to play Texas Hold’em. And Craig as Bond was pretty damn good, I’d only seen him in “The Jacket” playing a psycho but in this he was probably the coldest Bond of them all.
“Superman Returns” was also pretty good. Superman has always been my favorite superhero for some reason and this movie really delivered. I particularly liked that they still had Marlon Brando as his father rather than trying someone else. But Lois Lane as a mother didn’t quite feel right. And it reminds me of a classic Kevin Smith dialogue from “Mallrats” regarding her fallopian tubes… everyone who’s seen it knows what I mean 🙂
Both movies were ok but nothing that’ll go down in movie history as “best ever!” I think. Pretty succesfull sunday.
Last weekend I had alot of issues on my mind, enough to make me depressed. Alot of small things (like my dead car battery, christmas shopping, suit that needed cleaning, photo session and so on) and two major things – WoW guild disbanded and my new potential girlfriend. Well all those small issues are now resolved thanks to friends and my ever supportive sister AC. And WoW guild dying isn’t as bad as I thought, I mean it’s just a game right and I get all my spare time back now in time for Christmas and the holidays. And there’s always the option of joining another guild and I may even end up playing more (!) than before. We’ll see, but it’s not important really…
Which just left that potential girlfriend. I’d met her during a party and we were pretty similar in alot of ways and at first it was “I totally get her!”. But after almost three weeks of dating and her going to Paris to get some perspective we met up again on saturday, talked for an hour then kinda agreed that it wasn’t working out. And a friendly goodbye hug and “I’ll see you around” and one more relationship that didn’t survive the 3 week mark (this was 6 hours short), I’m becoming the expert at that. But since we never got that serious and I saw it coming a mile away it’s not getting me down that much. But it did feel good while it lasted, never knew I could be so happy with a women fully dressed.
So all in all – one week later and everything sorted. Now bring on Christmas and the New Year!
Most problems I had last weekend seems to be solved now. Going out christmas shopping today with my sister. Better late than never.
Some news from work ; Our lawfirm used to be run by the partners of the firm, and even if they knew the law very well and made a ton of money they didn’t really know how to run a company of Vinge’s size. So about a year ago they hired a guy to run things. That guy is like the personification of alpha male, really cool guy. One of his way of running things is to make sure the administrative staff is happy. Not only the lawyers but the others too, the janitors and the IT department. One of his ways of doing that has been to make sure we’ve been included in for example the trip to the Czech republuc- And now he’s doing it again but giving the administrative staff a $1 400 (10 000 SEK christmas bonus!! How sweet is that! Unfortunately half of that is going to tax, but still…
Unfortunately it’s not all good. Another of his projects is making sure everybody is included on the new website with a staff directory, even the IT department. So we had to go get our pictures taken by this professional photographer that came by. He was really weird, ordered us to smile, slowly, in small stages from neutral to right out laugh. Unfortunately I suck at that, I either look neutral or laugh. But the result looked like this. Not too bad if I may say so!! And no, I don’t wear a suit at work, that was just a coincidence!!
So I’m chatting on MSN with my niece in scotland. She really enjoys talking on MSN and it’s a nice pause from work. The only trouble is she uses some weird sign language that I don’t get. Like when I asked why she wasn’t in school yet, and she said she doesn’t start until 9. Well it’s 9:25 here so?… and she sent this back:
And things are going better now, eliminating one problem at a time. But women are still impossible and unpredictable. I don’t know what, if anything, I may have done wrong with this one but she’s not talking to me for whatever reasons.
I like to think I have a pretty strong psyche. And I have a pretty good ability to take a step back and analyze things. Which is why it’s so funny knowing and pinpointing the small little things that are making me somewhat depressed right now. Unfortunately it doesn’t really solve any of the current problems and there isn’t really anything I can do about them except wait them out and hope it blows over. Which it always does. But it’s still a pretty funny thing to do and it’s a good sign that I’m not _that_ depressed. And that possible girlfriend I had going isn’t returning my calls. Guess I shouldn’t have said anything…
But one small bit of good news is that I’ve finally added a page with a day-by-day description of me and my sister’s latest trip to Scotland. So, it’s not all bad.
This must be the fall/winter-depression coming on a bit late but now I’m depressed. I saw “Clerks 2” the other day and since then I’ve been in a “who am I why am I here and where am I going?”-state which is all kinds of depressive things. And just like that our WoW guild is splitting up (which is seing something I worked hard for 18 months go down the drain) and if that’s not enough – when I have the perfect opportunity to show a little bit of romance with a prospective girlfriend my car dies on me and ruins the entire thing. God damnit!!!
But yeah, atleast I have a prospective girlfriend, that cheers me up a bit (and thank you Mats for letting that cat out of the bag). But then my ever cheerful sis cheers me up with “you’re doing good, have a job, don’t live with your parents, you got your health and so does both your parents, what are you whining about?”….
True that, what am I whining about? And will that help?…
How can I be so depressed over a little thing like our WoW guild splitting up? Well I joined the guild back in august 2005 and in march this year me and my buddy Mats took over and pretty much ran it from there. I’ve pretty much dedicated most of my free time to it, even some time at work. I’ve never had a problem prioritizing real life over my WoW life (atleast I don’t think so), but in the deeper analysis I guess I could say that I have a limited real life thanks to WoW taking so much of my time. And now all that hard work is gone. I wouldn’t say wasted since I’ve had alot, ALOT of good times with them. Another thing is all of a sudden I end up in this “what to do now?”-mode? It’s probably for the best that it went like this since even if I do go on it won’t be on this level and I’ll have alot more time on my hands to deal with real life and all that stuff. But it’s all too depressing. It’s not that I’m against changes, I like changes, changes are good but in this case… I want it back the way it was.