I’m having one of those days… one of those kick ass “nothing is gonna get me down” days!! It helps that I slept a very comfortable 9 hours, I had a nice breakfast, the sun was shining, listening to the new Moby CD on the way in to work and texting my girlfriend and then I went one step beyond and texted all my friends “if you’re happy and you know it clap your hands”. And guess what! They all replied with claps! So my friends are doing great too. And going home to my girlfriend soon to watch some House and fall asleep holding her. Aint life good sometimes!? 🙂
Is there anything big going on in the big world outside? I’ve been all focused and “snowed in” in this romance I got going here, it’s all good and going from great to better, and it feels like I’ve totally lost track of what’s going on in the world. Usually I’m on top of that 🙁
Anyway, right now we’re in the “getting to know each other’s friends and family” phase. And this weekend is the oh so important “meet my parents” which is bound to be a kick ass great thing, but I’m nervous since it’s so much at stake here ’cause I don’t know what kinda relationship we’d have if things don’t go too well? … time will tell… in the mean time I’m doing my best learning how to cook. Mastered peppar steaks, fish and tomorrow – time for pasta 🙂
Yesterday I did a pretty good post here. Atleast for me. But… well, it’s all about respecting the fact that it’s not really only about me. I have no problem exposing myself and give details to my friends and family and everyone else who finds their way here. But that’s me. I’m different. Not everyone is like that. So it’s all about respecting that. Sorry 🙂
So how are things on your end? Personally I haven’t felt this good (mentally or physically) for a long long time! Except for my ear still ringing a bit I really have no problems at all! As a matter of fact… I got this weird mail from this woman on an internet site on tuesday and by the third mail we were getting very personal and now I just got off the phone with her after talking for about 90 minutes! Now everyone who knows me and knows what I’m like on the phone (short and to the point) gotta be amazed how I can keep a 90 minute conversation, but it wasn’t a problem. This is good! And we’re going out on monday 😉
Did anyone else react to that? It looked good when I wrote it but when I read it again it really didn’t make sense, cause really, what is “my own age”?… I dunno why but I still have trouble seeing myself as a grownup sometimes. Only two weeks ago I ate a “semla” for breakfast which is to any normal adult absurd, but I did it just cause I could and I wanted to…
Found a good comic that described that so very well – http://xkcd.com/150/ 🙂
Yesterday I went out with a few former colleagues that I’d lost touch with over time. One of many conclusions of the evening was that in the right company it doesn’t really matter where you are. Cause we ended up at some very snobbish and posh place I’d never been to. But atleast they served beer. Kinda. They had 4 kinds. Then it was all drinks and whisky and stuff. And the crowd was just rediculous. But we found a comfy place to sit at and just started chatting away what’s beeing happening to everyone in the past years. Naturally the two guys I’ve not talked to in years had got married with children, good for them, but as always, a reminder to me 🙂
But it was really fun and a good break to the normal tuesday routine!
I like Valentine’s day, but not for the reason’s you’d think. I’m hopelessly single so this bs with one day per year being cute and cuddly and all that, whatever makes people happy I guess, but I like it ’cause it’s the birthday of NataliePortman.com! We’re up to 8 years now and even though I hardly do any work there anymore it’s still amazing how a non-profit fan driven website like that can still be up and running!! And even though I hate “big corporations” I gotta give credit to google for their AdSense programme, would never have afforded it otherwise!
And I made atleast one woman’s valentines alot happier, and making other people makes me happy 🙂
Here I am at work with the worst case of what we in sweden call “i-lands problem”, a small little problem that’s so irrelevant and would in any third world country be laughed at for having… where to lunch! That’s the topic for about a 30 minute conversation here… we just couldn’t come up with a good place to eat lunch. Now that’s a pretty good indicator at how much issues I have atm.
The more I date and the more I watch “House” the more I’m certain I’m totally gonna end up so totally like him! Bitter, sarcastic hopelessly single man running around commenting on human behaviour. Guess it could be worse 🙂
I either date women who are too good for me or women who… well, I think “I could do better” which is a bunch of shallow bullshit, I know, I can’t help it. And I know most women think the same thing when they look at my pictures. It’s the way it is, no matter how nice and polite some people wanna be. I know it’s shallow .. but I am honest above all. And on the other side are all these women I would really go well with that are either already taken or I just don’t wanna risk the friendship ’cause of my hormones
Meanwhile, having fun as hell. And won scrabble again 🙂
You know what I get really annoyed at with these free newspapers they give out to commuters in the morning so we have something to read? … they don’t fill out with any unnecessary information, just the facts, short and to the point, just the way I usually like it. But sometimes they miss out on the small things. Like this article from last week. It’s in swedish unfortunately. It’s an article about a new promising player in our national team. But they missed out on one small little bit of information. What sport are we talking about!? I happen to know it’s handball since I saw the game, but they never ever mention what sport we’re talking about! They just assume you know what they are talking about and if you don’t you’re not worthy to know. It’s pissing me off cause they do it ALOT!! How hard is it to type?
One of my good abilities when driving is that I have pretty good check on my surroundings, I see things on the side and stuff way ahead of me. But on sunday when I was driving my sisters kids home as I was about to pass a lorry, a deer decided to try get passed the road. He failed. Completely. Smashed my car up big time and there really wasn’t much left of it either. So there goes all that money I would’ve spent on fun stuff to try to save up for a new car cause it’s really about time for me to buy a new one.
I’m just happy I kept my cool and kept the car on the road and didn’t run off or hit the lorry 🙂
One of the guys I met the other day is a former colleague that I really enjoyed working with, cause he was funny and I really respect the dude personally and professionally (and he’s a frequent visitor here too!). And he’s happily married and have a son now and he was telling us (3 hopelessly single guys) about the overwhelming emotion of having a child and the feeling that “this persons life means more to me than my own” surprised him. He’s not the first person to have said that, another friend described it as “it was the moment I stopped living for me and started living for my child”. Now I have absolutely no way of knowing how powerful that feeling is or anything but… I dunno what’s wrong with me cause I already feel those things, definitely not as intense but definitely more frequently! There aren’t that many people that I wouldn’t lay down my life for (and I hope to prove it one of these days)! And I’ve never felt that I live for me… maybe that’s cause I’ve always been on the service side of things and why I’m happiest when all my friends and family are doing good and I lose sleep over just one friend being miserable. But what do I know …
I may have inadvertently hurt this wonderful woman I dated late tuesday but I still feel like a good guy. Why? Because it made my weekend terrible. I couldn’t get over it and lost a lot of sleep thanks to it. The idea of a woman out there being hurt and sad because of me feels right down in the gut. So my priorities is still pretty nicely tuned. And that makes me feel a little bit better. If I had hurt a woman and not felt a thing, then I would be seriously worried.
And I guess this brings the counter up to two. Two women in my entire life that I have in some way hurt, both of them inadvertently. And the irony is that both of them was hurt because I knew too much. My resourcefulness and desire to know stuff doesn’t always serve me in a good way.
But now I sent off a very very nice letter to her explaining myself, begging for forgiveness and a second chance. I doubt she will since this thing came up before we even got started but as my wingman told me, “got nothing to lose”. Except my dignity but that’s worthless in comparison to another shot at this delightful woman.
The dating life goes on. This week something really funny but kinda sad happened! A few weeks ago I’d started talking to this really nice and funny woman and when we agreed to go out it was bad timing since she was just leaving for a 2 week skitrip. But that was good since it gave me “2 weeks to plan the perfect date” (quoting her!). And being the practical man I am I got right in there trying to sort as much as possible in case she was serious about that, including looking up where she lived to try and find some good place in that region of town. Then she came back and thank god she was only joking about that. We went out on tuesday and she was certainly one of the cutest girls I’ve ever met! And over the appx. 80 minute long “talking over coffee” date we had I of course mentioned that to her when explaining what a “obsessed with the small practical things” kinda guy I am I mentioned that and she seemed to laugh it off. We had a good date I thought and she said she had fun so we hugged off on the station and went our seperate ways. Today I got the verdict. I shouldn’t have checked up where she lived and I shouldn’t have mentioned it cause that was NOT popular. Quite the opposite. So that’s off because of a small little thing like that. *sigh*
Update: Yes I should have asked her, and the fact is I did in an e-mail I sent and hoped she would reply to before she went away for 2 weeks, but I guess that was too long. And yes I should have asked her when we met but I already knew so faking not knowing goes against my honesty thing I got going. Anything else?
So it’s that time of the year that everyone gets the flu or something. That’s actually one of the few times I like being single and not having kids, I usually miss it. But after sitting next to a guy at work that’s been sick for 2 weeks it eventually hit me. So yesterday I was out cold with fever and everything. Today is a bit better but still not ok. I hate getting these things when you’re not feeling ok but not bad enough to justify not going to work. ‘Cause it takes more than this to make me stay home, I’m the guy who’ll go to africa when I’m feeling a bit sick 🙂
I saw AvP2 yesterday. Pretty damn good flic!! I just had to open with that so I can make the following argument without being a hipocrite:
But you know things are good when the two biggest newspapers lead story today is Britney Spears was admitted to a hospital yesterday. I mean, that must mean there’s nothing more important going on anywhere that we need to report on? No weather abnomolies, no pre-primary presidential preparation election in the US (that the third biggest newspaper was leading with), no revolution in Kenya, no snowstorm in Stockholm, nope, Britney got admitted to hospital, that’s really everything.
*sigh*
How’s 2008 going so far? For me it’s… well, still to be decided. On the downside we have
1) Warcraft guild breaking down again (which ironically would actually be good for me)
2) Alot of TV shows are starting their last seasons
3) Our trekking saturdays is probably gonna be a thing of the past due to low attendance.
So that should make me atleast a little bit depressed? Well, I ain’t. Cause today I woke up and witnessed a snowstorm outside and said to myself “it’ll be a miracle if the trains are on time today”…. but they were! So at 8 am I sat down in my warm comfy chair with a warm cup of tea and enjoyed the snowstorm in Kungsan. That felt good. Then I got a cute e-mail from a cute woman I’m hoping to get a date with any day now, but ironically enough she’s off to switzerland to ski over the weekend so that’ll have to wait. Which is why I can’t really say if 2008 is off to a good or bad start yet.
But tonight… Alien vs. Predator 2! Yeah, I’m actually going to the movies!!
Happy new year everyone!
I spent another new years eve in the calm comforting company of my family, enjoying a nice dinner, some beer, alot of “remember when…” discussions and a visit from their neighbors to talk even more trash and toast in the new year. Pretty sweet.
Now if you know me well enough you’ll know I’m all about moments. ‘Cause what you remember in life aren’t an entire sequenze of events like a video, but more moments like still pictures. And I’m trying to maximize those moments as well as I can.
So on the question of what the best moment of 2007 was I’d say “that perfect moment kissing Nina back in May”. Ironically the answer to what was the worst moment of 2007 is “when she threw me out 10 seconds later for no reason”. Which pretty much sums up the entire relationship – heaven and hell.
So let’s hope 2008 can top that… or better yet, let’s make damn sure it tops that!
Seems I had so much fun I kinda forgot this place and wishing everyone a merry christmas!
But I hope you had a jolly good weekend and holiday, I sure did. Nothing spectacular. As always I spend it “at home” with my parents and my sister and her kids coming over and my “brother” joakim as well. Had a very very relaxing christmas, plenty of fun and way too much food. I gained like 3 kilos in the past 2 weeks, thank you very much for that. But I guess that’s the standard for this holiday, isn’t it? Then I had my friends over here for some movie watching and catching up on what’s happening and tonight I’m going to my old friend Henrik’s place, you know the guy that got married. He got a PS3 we need to break in with alot of gaming and stuff with the old crew from high school, that’ll be a blast I hope. Then I got no plans for the coming weekend what so ever and since I’m >30 now I’ll need it to recover 🙂
Here’s hoping you’re having as much fun as I am!!
This sunday I realised something quite lovely. After catching up with alot of old friends at the wedding and chatting with other friends on MSN and stuff, I came to the conclusion … everyone of my friends and everyone around me is in a pretty happy place at the moment. Ok, maybe not my sis, but she’s doing a good job of faking it.
But my old friends from school are all happy, married, kids and all that shabang. My bestest buddy Mats is happy his chick got a job up here in stockholm so they can finally live together. Another friend went through a minor depression but she’s all better and cheerful. Everyone is just happy. And you know me, when my friends are happy I’m happy. If even one of them is miserable it’s enough to make me lose sleep over it thinking “what can I do”. Seriously, happened last week for example. But that was then, this is now so everybody is happy in time for Christmas!!… or they just know I lose sleep when they aren’t so they just don’t tell me nothing 🙁